Yet on the direct opposite, I was feeling kinda sad and home-sick a few days ago....... this holiday is really long.
Can't wait till next year's.
Was chatting to Qing about the "orange world"~ here's a pic to illustrate` although this pic was not even close to what I was seeing...haha~ it was so orange that you just can't help keep staring` even for me- this is really first of its kind.Going back to Cape Town is like going back to reality, a true start to 2009.
If I say I am looking forward to it, I am DEFINITELY lying to myself~ haha` but if I say I am not looking forward to starting my 2nd year~ I think there is something wrong with me...haha~ as scared as I am right now about the stress and pressure I am going to face in 1 month's time, I am just as excited.
What can I do this year? How will I fare in my 2nd year studies... can I do better or will I do worse?
I can only try. Try my best in the coming future.
For some reason, my motivations aint coming from myself... somehow, my heart just kept telling me that I must make them proud of their son. It used to be very personal aims and ideals... but now, after these days living with Dad, Mum and bro..... my studies didn't just matter about myself anymore...
It became a family thing called Glory and Honour.
Bro will be on the same Engineering route although different paths.
I will be striving.
To make our parents proud.
Tomorrow, I will be on my way back to Cape Town.... bro and I will be driving, swopping drives at rest points~ need to sleep earlier tonight.
I feel that I am starting to become the serious me again... :) haha~ scary stuff.
Don't like that kind of myself...yet, I had to when it comes to serious matters.